Fear and Inauthenticity

October 21, 2012

Disingenuousness occurs when one identifies with his externals more than his internals. Whether he wants to conform or stand out, regardless, he is identifying with a biproduct of the real self, the internal self–he is incorrectly identifying himself as a set of characteristics rather than an agent of choice. In doing so he tries to control his behavior at the external level alone while the real, internal self runs amok. The created external self is now a superficial self because it looks however the person wants it to look. Instead of gripping the root of the whole person, the internal self, he only tidies up the outside. Disingenuousness is a doctor who aims to make the patient’s sickness invisible by treating the symptoms instead of treating the patient.

Knowing first hand the possibility of real fear reveling in its weakness as it flees from the fear itself, or thinking I know for certain what I don’t, or convincing myself of certainty where I should know I lack it, I am forced to empathize with those I used to brush off as blind. And a much of conditioning persuades the real self to focus on its externals rather than internals; the result convinces the person those conditioned externals are a faithful mirror of the internals. When the person thinks this, it becomes true. Self-denial does not always spring from disingenuousness; a genuine concern, however muffled, may always be underneath the burdensome actuality of externals. The question is how easily a person flees from fear proportionate to their perception of the object of fear, illusory or not, and how easily a person flees before we lack sympathy. There is no fine line.

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